Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Is it enough?


As my first anniversary approached I was trying to think of the words to express to my husband exactly how I feel about him. See, my husband is of the quite amazing type. He is the man I always dreamed that I would find, but never quite thought it was possible.

So, as I was thinking I just kept coming back to three little words, I love you. These words are used so often that I often feel like they just aren't enough. I feel stronger for him than I heart you, like I see drawn on every high school notebook. I feel more than a quick phrase that ends a phone conversation.

But what, what means more than I love you?

The first time those three words are uttered your world spins. He loves me! At that moment it is more than enough. It is everything you have been waiting for.

When he told me for the first time believe me it was more than enough! But now, on our first anniversary I felt the need for something more.

The answer I found was a need to define what I love you means. To each of us, in each relationship it carries such a different meaning.

For my husband it is this...

With you I love you are the three words that say it all. I love you in the morning means I enjoyed holding your body close all night. It is a hint that I can't wait for the day to end, so that I can do it all over again.

On my way out the door I love you also means I miss you already and is a plea for you to just come with me.

At the end of the day, it means I am thankful to have you to come home to and is the sound of all the days worries drifting away.

Before bed at night it is a prayer for another day and a thank you for everything you are.

I love you in a laugh means I am glad that you understand me and know exactly who I am.

And I love you in the silence of a car ride means I am delighted just knowing you are near.

Each I love you means forever. It means I am here, to grow with you, to listen to you, to care for you, to be your partner through it all. It is a thank you for all the I love you's you give to me. With every new day my I love you matures and means more and more. So today, on our anniversary I love you is definitely enough.

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